Silver, Deity(Marissa)

[Guest]

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CASE FILE: Cretan Militiant



"The Weight of the world."
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FULL NAME:
→ Marissa Lynn Silver previously known as Deity Raen Silver

AGE:
→ 28

SEX:
→ female

BIRTH PLACE:
→ London

RACE:
→ Cretan

DEPARTMENT:
→ Internal Affairs

DATE OF BIRTH:
→ March 7, 1984

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HEIGHT:
→ 6'

WEIGHT:
→ 140 lbs

PICTURE:
→

Spoiler:

DESCRIPTION:
→ Deity looks nothing above average upon first sight. Her hair a lengthy, well taken care of a straw brown or blond(She no longer dyes her hair, so her hair is back to natural dark brown) while her eyes are a pretty light blue color maybe an ice silver. Her face seems to always hold a scowl. Her hair cascades elegantly to her lower mid back. Her skin is a fair pale in color; smooth to sight and touch. With small curves of feminine eyes she looks almost friendly if it weren't for her personality. Lidded eyes and an annoyed expression often embraces her face. With a look of she'd rather not talk to anyone and that most people are below her; her facial expression seems to turn people away. The way she talks is that of someone who no longer holds interest in anything. Her apathy making her seem almost mean to the eyes. A rather tall stature and a straight back from practice makes her body held high and almost as if she thinks she's better than everyone. Her whole of her body with a nice figure, but bad body language.

Her clothes are odd and show her money through material. Her clothing changes day to day. Normally she wears outfits that shows a little of her money, though unintentional, she has grown in those mannerisms. Expensive dresses, name-brand shoes and all the like litter her closet, mostly untouched except for once or twice. Common-day wear is her uniform or a sort of business suit. Deity likes things that don't reveal too much and at the same time let her body show (though not completely). She's a fan of two-inch to three-inch heels and tight skirts. Often a buttoned-up shirt and jacket combo makes her look like a professional even on normal days. When needed to dress up, she wears long, flowing gowns that fit tight to her. As she likes to know her clothes are on', otherwise she'd obsessively have to check. She does wear tight normally but of a neutral color that doesn't show she's wearing them.

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PERSONALITY:
→ "I don't want to live anymore."
Deity is slightly suicidal. When things don't work her way, she becomes instable and tries to rid herself of life completely. Though it's not ALWAYS true, it is very common for her to do stupid or dangerous things. She has no real will to preserve her life, so suicidal missions are fine with her and the only reason she doesn't take them were because of her parents preventing it. Every time they would step in front of her and stop it like the obstacles they were. Her apathy leaves her seeming annoyed all the time. Lack of interest and lack of motivation often makes her seem more machine than woman at times. Her mind closed off to others.

Deity is a very touchy person. She's easily discourage and quick to get defensive. When people accuse her of jealousy or anything really, she freaks out and starts to almost attack the person verbally. Deity is quick to anger and quick to hold a grudge. She is also very jealous and prone to enviousness. Upon duty, she is dedicated and controlled. She focuses strictly on work and whether morally it's right or wrong she will choose what the law enforces. Her personality makes her seem like she is always right and at times she can be seen as stuck up or mean. Actually Deity is very fragile mentally and full of simple anger and hatred. She longs to be free and to do what SHE wants but knows that the ties of family bind her to a world she didn't want to be a part of.

Deity does not think high of herself. In fact she hates herself and her life. She hides these factors though and masks it with the mean outer facade. Internally she longs to be around people and to socialize with friends. Unfortunately her fear of rejection and the way of her family makes it near impossible to accomplish. Her family controlling every aspect of her life and stalking her life as if she were some criminal under house arrest.

Deity is not at all the typical emo. As she would not sit in mope all day. She is the type of woman to take action. No matter the course, she would spring and lead a random attack as if it were nothing. Though she does not usually act without a plan, her hot headedness can sometimes be a downfall. She is prone to slap perverts, including her boss, Zen and will state her mind if she's annoyed. She likes to kiss workers in the ass if at times literally and can get in a don't mess with me mood. Deity is work first, play later kind of girl and is a rule-a-holic. She obsesses over rules, protocols and has an obsessive order with it.

"Let me try once more to fly."

After the mission, Marissa has become more aware of herself. She knows she has some worth though she might not see it all the time. She knows she has courage and she knows that she doesn't have to hurt herself for control. Controlling herself has become easier, as does expressing emotion. Though she's still not vivid in her expressions, the smile isn't as farfetched and her eyes show the occasional glint of sadness instead of constant pain. Happiness still scares her, but she also understands she's allowed to have it once in a while like everyone else. She's not an optimist exactly, but instead of pessimism she has a more.. realistic point of view on life. It's not as if the glass is half full or half empty but more a 'at least there's something to drink'.

Deity is prone to outbursts. If she feels threatened, she lashes out at the threaten-er. Though, normally she can keep her cool, there are certain buttons that can be pushed to activate her freak out modes. She doesn't exactly express herself well, but she does hold a conversation. Unless she feels comfortable, she won't talk much. She is brave enough to act with the heat of battle and though things may be against her, she's strong enough to push through..



LOVE:
→ Being apathetic, working, studying languages and cultures, cooking and tight, dark spaces (like closets), her teddy bear (SHH!!), Her family, flowers, honey, salmon, sushi, Aerugese culture

HATE:
→ Her parents, days off work, talking to people, beautiful things, things that strike any sort of feeling knives (Bad memories, too much temptation), Coffee, most perfumes, new car smell, spearmint, seagulls

DEEPEST SECRET:
→ Attempted to kill herself, Recovering Cutter

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HISTORY:
→ "How I wish to break free from this cage."

Deity was born the oldest of a four sibling family. Though she was technically tied with her twin sister, Deity was the oldest. Upon birth she held a high level of expectations from her parents. They adored their baby girls, but the younger twin, was odd. Deity could feel the tension as she grew older; a bit more knowing what was going on, unlike her younger twin. As they grew in their age, no older than ten, the rumors began. Amity was shunned by most of the main-branch Silver family. Discussions of her being the manifestation of an affair. The red eyes almost being that of a demon. The family was cut off from the money and was poor for those whole first few years and eventually they would hand over the twin to the uncle. There wasn't much of a fight and the whole family seemed to turn a blind eye towards it. Deity was stunned and confused as to why Amity would be taken.

Now the princess of the family, Deity had dual responsibility thrust upon her. The life surprisingly unchanged despite the fact her sister had been taken away from her. How could no one notice? Soon enough, Deity would slowly conform. She had no real choice while rumors, lies and gossips filled her head. In school, she was forced into literature and studies. her parents placing the weight on her shoulders of having to be perfect. A sort of compensation for the Amity mishap. Deity was seen as almost popular in school and yet, she had few if any friends. Her parent snot allowing her to do anything outside of their tight-held reins. She had no time to really be free. Between training and school, then her started work, Deity held a sort of life most people would hate.

As the focus of her parents' view, she was unable to escape, essentially caged and unable to live a life of her own. Her parents led her life; living it for her. A mind filled with the corruption. It seemed she would grow to hate her sister and her own life. Deity had to force a sort of smile at school and work; seeming to be happy as she lived a life of oppression. Her soul feeling hollow and empty and slowly she became numb. The smiles stopped completely and Deity cut herself off emotionally from everyone. Damming it up within her mind to prevent others knowing who she was. Of course began to see her as a typical successful woman; proud and snooty, yet none stopped to get to know her.

Upon her seventeenth birthday, her sister returned home to visit. The woman far happier than Deity could ever be. Stricken with envy, she would nearly attack her sister. The two starting to fight and soon beginning to turn into a literal brawl. Deity pulled a knife upon Amity and while in tears told her she would kill her. Amity stared on with terrified and angry eyes before storming out. The family seemed unaffected, but Deity fell to her knees. Sobbing silently and alone. She felt so awful; chasing the one person who MIGHT stop to know her.

Stricken with guilt and envy; Deity would attempt to take her life at that time. Her blade still in hand, she would slice at her wrists and soon she blacked out; bleeding upon the floor. Her parents of course would hear the thud and race to action; seeing their princess upon the floor and dying. It was a moment of complete worry. people crowding the hospital while she had her wrists stitched in an emergency surgery. No time wasted and no penny spared. The scars of course remains and afterwards, the family paid the media to keep it quiet. Soon the whole of them vanished back to their abode.

Deity became apathetic after that. Her reactions seeming sluggish as she had stopped caring. An unhappy bird trapped with wings clipped. She would simply do nothing but what she HAD to do. In a sort of random urge, she signed up for the military while her parents had their backs turned. They were outraged and though she had thought it would be an escape; Deity found home-life even more annoying. Her parents stricter as they didn't want their princess injured anymore. They would claim it would never make her happy or that she could never go through. They even begged her to drop out and yet she wouldn't. Amity never knew of her sister's strains and Deity never felt more alone. Upon reaching her new job; she would try and drown the pain in work. Distracting her emotions with busy work. For a while it would work. Her dedication leaving her with a mind too busy to feel pain. A numbness that left her feeling as if she weren't real.

Another visit from her sister ended in disaster. It seemed that Deity could just never control her jealousy. Frustrated she instead ignored the feelings. This time not trying to kill herself instead she just acted as if she were better. A sort of thing she could stand. If others hated her, she felt better. After all, then she wasn't the only one. Her attitude growing stronger and the more pain she felt, the more she would hide in the contours of working. Yet she would write out in her journal how upset she could get at times. "I don't want to be caged anymore." She would beg a piece of paper and yet to see her face left people thinking she was mean or too tired to acknowledge someone.

"Welcome to life."

Ever since the mission, Deity has become a stronger person. Despite the fact she was still under her parent's thumb, she grew to find something worth fighting for. What with her new friends formed and a sort of reality check from Elastor's almost death, she was ripped rather bluntly from her roots and thrown through a loop or two. A feeling struck up in her she hadn't felt since her sister left: FEAR. Her terrified mind went through a mass of rearranging as she frantically fought through a chaos to help save his life. Not only just him, a call made to even save others. When she stopped to think about it, Deity started to see where she had been blind and after an intervention with Elastor.. Deity put her knife away. Though the action had transformed into addiction, she now instead sought better ways to keep the pain at bay. She pushed her knife and picked up a pen. Words on paper couldn't hurt her. If she didn't hurt herself.. that was less pain for her friends.

Not long after, Deity started cutting her ties one by one. A step taken to break her parents viceful grip that was choking her. Wounds were deep and not everything would be healed right away, but it was okay. The first step was the hardest and as she gave them a stern talking to, she proclaimed her independence and her rights. Though her father wasn't happy to see that his baby girl wanted herself to be free, he couldn't argue and let her slip. Of course not everything would be great. Rageful water still sat in the past and the fact Amity still had not turned up. Where was that woman at, anyways? No one knew anything about her. Was the woman dead or alive? Deity couldn't be sure... All she did know was something wasn't right. She needed her sister. She wanted her sister.. but.. she was nowhere to be found. The older twin had a pain that sat constantly in her chest. Her sister was not okay and the older twin knew that by instinct. Even her own body wasn't feeling too well and depression had become more rampant which spawned more worry. Though, she would never let anyone know of her troubles.

As soon as she was free, she went to the government and changed her name legally from Deity Silver to Marissa Silver. A new wave of life rolled into her from something simple as a new name.

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TRIVIA:
→ She can speak Cretan, Amestrian and Aerugese. She studied on them.
→ Twin sister of Amity
→ Cannot stand the word congeal.
→ Has scars on the insides of both of her wrists
→ Has OCD. All things must have some sort of order.
→ If someone messes with her order (be it her room or her routine) she literally has to stop and panic about what she's supposed to do.
→ She is partially blind in her right eye.
→ She often confuses feelings of hot and cold.
→ When counting she constantly skips 69.
→ She cannot sleep if there are doors or windows open.
→ Refuses to say anything related to sex.
→ Can balance five books on her head and walk a good thirty feet.
→ Owns three pairs of shoes.
→ Has to butter her toast on both sides.
→ Constantly worries about her twin
→ Can't stand Murazar because he took her sister away
→ Loves to read romance and detective novels
→ Favorite animal is a lovebird
→ Sleeps in a over-sized t-shirt and pajama bottoms
→ Has a stuffed teddy bear hidden under her bed.
→ Lives in an small two bedroom house
→ Often reads herself to sleep
→ sometimes wraps her wrists and sometimes uses cover up for her scars.
→ Legally changed her name from Deity Silver to Marissa Silver

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ALIAS:
→ Ammy

OTHER CHARACTERS:
→ Yoshida, Caj, Valeria, Lian, Kata

CREATOR'S COMMENTS:
→ Revamp/level

CUSTOM RANK:
→ Broken Wing

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[Guest]

Congeal is such a cool word though.

Be careful - you're accumulating a lot of characters pretty damn quickly. Make sure you can keep up with them. Who do you want the points taken from?

[Guest]

i plan on taking on only this one and then Luc that's my limit XD but points will be taken from Amity

[Guest]

The only thing I'd say is put an actual city as to where they are from in Creta. Like New York, London, Philly, Los Vegas.... basically any city that exists in either England or America. XD Other than that, she looks good!

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[Guest]

Rolling Rank....

[Dai]

The member 'Vivian' has done the following action : Rank Roll

'Lieutenant Roll' : 6

[Guest]

revamp edits complete

[Guest]

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<3

[Guest]

This revamp/level up is done

[Csilla Angelis]

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Everything looks good! I like this new side of Dei-... Marissa! =D

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