Memories of an old dog.

[Rolego]

Rolego walked with Salane still on her side, it was a strange thing to see that she was still there after so long. She was very serious when she said she was going to stick like glue. But even some glue wears over time so it was a large shock to him to see someone stay. And also to move so far without any issues, he already began to miss the face of that one girl though...though he hated the energy she had her motives were alright...maybe...he still did not trust her..especially that male that was there, he just made Rolego only think of anything else but tearing him a new one. but thankfully things did indeed chance overtime.

But that was months ago though...and as time flew by he had not said another thing sense then. He knew he could talk around Salane, but he always found a reason to not to. he liked her and he could obviously tell she liked him a bit as well, but what really made his blood turn was the fact that he was...who he was. it was a sick thing, he was no longer human but still had human emotions, like joy, fear, and sorry, since that was all he had experienced so far besides some joy with Salane.

So, in this in mind he had a reason to keep walking despite his mind and how he was. Cause he had only one person to live for...even though she would not allow herself to see.

[Guest]

Salane had been with Drake..or whom she named Drake for about 4 months now, and she was happy to say it was never a day that went by that was boring. She had learned so much in the desert, and with her studies completed she was going to try to get back home...but she was also very terrified to do so. She was very terrified of the people she had left behind..mainly her father...who had not seen any kindness toward chimeras like she did. Heck, she was at a time bashed for her beliefs for some equality...and it took her whole family and their power of controlling the news from their name being stained...

But her journeys with Drake had been nothing but enjoyable...and returning home with her head holding a bit higher was all she needed. Well, if she ever wanted to by the way...it was her plan to but...she had been thinking these past few days when it came to that subject...she never loved being home...she was paraded like a trophy, and at times was used for nothing but a way of attention for her family, giving speeches, doing parades, and being a...model for a man whom was the only person IN her family she could really respect, and he took her to so many places, which is why she is who she is today.

But he was never like who she was now...she learned to love and respect others and talk to them...even when they walk silent, which is why she began to really feel for Drake...he had not spoken since the snows in the desert, but, at the same time, it seemed like they had been speaking for so long. They had walked, and slept together, feeding and taking care of one another...it was like a family thing, and seeing that Drake was still by her side made her wonder of the reasons of why he did stay...so with a small feel of her hand in his mane she gave a small giggle.

Drake...how long has it been since we last talked together...

[Rolego]

Rolego was simply walking with his head down and toward the ground. He knew where they were going and he was not truly comfy in doing so. it was an area where more people resides, and his kind were not really welcome, and at times he thought the only way he was ever going to gain access into the place was if he had a leash on his neck, and a tag with his name. Something he had way to much pride to do. But he knew of the risks before leaving his safe haven in the desert, and walking out here was a miracle on its own it seemed to him.

Drake...how long has it been since we last talked together...

Drake actually gave a small look to Salane as she said this...has it been about 5 months since the last thing he said anything to her. And that was when he was in the desert and the snow feel for the first time he was there. So it was quite frankly enough time it seemed. But he, however, did not know what to say...it seemed like it was a simply question, but after so long it seemed like basic human speech was nothing more than just a burden on his mind. He did not toss it away, but it made his mind buzz with many answers and with many outcomes, all of them so pessimistic.

Every time his as his mouth moved nothing would come out, cause something sat in the back of his mind...no matter what he said it would not be valid nor worth it. But, he did however see that it was only her. And also she was the only one walking with her...so with a small sigh to himself and as well as to her, he finally did speak a few things.

It has been...almost 5 months...

He said with a strange crack in his tone, he had not been able to process fully at once like a normal human would, his speech was, though still there in full, was broken in speech, he would have to talk some more in order to continue getting better as he went along.

[Guest]

Salane waited rather patiently actually as she waited for an answer, for some reason she did not mind if he spoke or not, as she filtered through his silk mane it made everything...well..easy to know what he was saying even though he would not move his mouth. Like a strange moment of ESP. But she did however wonder why he did not speak after some time after the fall of the snow in the desert. it actually made her wonder why he was so overly protective of both he and over her. She knew she was the only one he could trust, but...getting him to trust others is what made her afraid.

What if she was not able to be with him for much longer, what then? Will he retreat back into the hole she found him in all those days ago? Or will he just...die...? Would he just give up..?

It has been...almost 5 months...

The sound of his voice made her head snap in his general direction and made her grin a soft grin. He was finally speaking after all of this time. it was like a small taste of god honey actually, after not hearing or having something for sometime, makes the pallet ever more surprised as well as ones ears when tasted or heard again, So with her mind growing and sparking with many questions and as well as many words to say...she toned her spirits down...way down back to what it was. She did not want to accidentally place him back to where he was.

Wow...5 months...i did not know how time can simply pass by...

She said as she looked up to the now dimming light above them in the clouds, so many different shapes...for some reason it matched the moment...

Drake...it is strange...after all of this time...this is only the second time we have ever spoke...if you dont mind me asking..why? You have such a good heart. Why keep it locked away so tightly?

She said with a small bit of concern. This was on her mind ever since that day. he guarded, fed, and walked with her for so long...with not a hint of any sort of emotion...but he did so with a certain flame she could not truly tell or understand. But all of the other things would have to come later...but for now...she will be satisfied, even with the small words he spoke only moments before.

[Rolego]

Rolego felt her hands going through his fur, and it made his body just warm. he was not head over heels for her...well..at least he thought he was not. He never did fall in love with anything or anyone before. So if he ever did he would never know. Quite a shame really, but to him it did not matter..love to him was nothing more than just an emotion...something that can be required by eating a piece of chocolate.

Wow...5 months...i did not know how time can simply pass by...

Indeed, time did pass...and it was only for so long in his mind. The time went by far to quick...and it made himself wonder what he had made himself seem...he never talked, not show any emotion but anger and rage...what was it in him that made him such a mystery other than himself? it made no sense. So many things just clattered all together...so many things...so many ideas...so many thoughts...death seeming to be the only solution...He felt rather terrible about it as well. He could have done far more for her, and as well as talked...but something in his chest...something...would not let him...

He feared her....he feared everyone...thought he could trust her...he could never find that one word...friend. He never uttered or felt that word come to mind. He could not trust her...despite how much she helped him and he helped her...

Drake...it is strange...after all of this time...this is only the second time we have ever spoke...if you dont mind me asking..why? You have such a good heart. Why keep it locked away so tightly?

Drakes feet slowly moved to a stop at this...and looked up at her with a look of sadness...he did not know...he never did, this was simply who he was. Being so many things, a child a boy, a soldier...and now this...none of his moments in life were happy nor enjoyable. His life people stepped all over him...and seeing one actually caring..he did not know how to take it in. it was like how one takes a new drug...it takes a long time to get used to and the body to understand...but he...never got used to it...her touch though soft and gentle...brought back memories of his past..people doing the same before.

All of them spitting on him, and hurting him in ways he could not explain...he could not feel what he used to...nor see...he walked many times blinder than the one who had her hand on him...and she could not see the world around her...but she knew so much more..

Well...I...I dont know...I just..dont...I have been hurt..and...stepped on in the past...I..just dont...know how to...speak...

He said in broken words...he trying to make his words come out of his mouth like how it was in his mind..but the fear of indifference...was what was preventing him. And feeling of no matter what...nothing would change...time never did for him.

I cant trust...anyone...and in my past...i..tried to be open...but...erm...I could not...find...happiness...I could not...find...a friend...

The words for some reason began to crush him...his mind and spirit slowly beginning to let these words bear more weight on him...saying the truth...why did it hurt so much...?

And...well...in time...I..just did not know what to do.....I cant find a friend...even...if it..was...they were...in front of me....I cannot see a friend...anymore...i just...see people...

He then sat down, and looked up at Salane with a sad look...but...looked back down to the ground...she could not see it...so why should he look this way? Why should he feel this way? No one never saw who he was...nor listened to care...she was the first...so..he waited to be rejected...

[Guest]

Again, she waited for an answer from her friend..and also her only friend actually. But what she was not expecting was the time she had to wait...5...6...8 minutes ticked by. And nothing came, and it made her wonder what made him silence so quickly...was it her...but then she felt her hands leave the mane she enjoyed to hold so much. It was like a hand leaving a crutch in an instant, and she actually frantically searched for him for a moment, finally finding him, but...could feel something very wrong and off...

Well first he was no longer moving, and she could almost just feel how cold the air loomed around him...she gave a small sigh, feeling that she had just hit a small nerve. But as she was about to speak he did.

Well...I...I dont know...I just..dont...I have been hurt..and...stepped on in the past...I..just dont...know how to...speak...

This was news...and it made her kneel down a little to look at him...and tilted her head at him a small bit, though she did not see him...she could easily see what he was looking like as he spoke..and it made her heart...slowly shatter...

I cant trust...anyone...and in my past...i..tried to be open...but...erm...I could not...find...happiness...I could not...find...a friend...

She looked on...and gave a small nod...relating a little..her past was not so beautiful either. So with a now saddening looking her eye listened more and more...more intent of what he was going to say..with one hand now in his mane and the other on his paw. Her mind slowly beginning to peck at the surface...and also her mind beginning to actually feel heavy and gloomed...so...this is what he thought this whole time...he was scared of her...he was terrified of her...but...she was happy that it was not her fault. But she was however feeling guilty...she never knew how dark his past was...and also...she never knew how many scars laid on him...

Just so many tearing and itching...festering wounds...that never did heal...

And...well...in time...I..just did not know what to do.....I cant find a friend...even...if it..was...they were...in front of me....I cannot see a friend...anymore...i just...see people...

These words pierced her heart...but it did not bleed...she actually felt his head move up,a,d for a moment feel his breath on her face...but then felt his head lower again. She could only give a large and saddening sigh at this...she had no idea this was going through his mind...a body able to work, but a body so battered and broken...it knows nothing else...how could someone be left in such shape? So...with her hand lifted his chin to hers face...and removed the black cloth that laid on her eyes...

Drake...listen...I may not be able to help you...and...i might not be doing enough to help you...but know this...

She then pulled him into her grasp and held him there...

You brought me here...and..walked ever further with me...with no words...and in nothing in return. I walked alone once...but now...i never will have that feeling again...and I owe that to you...

She then began to tighten her hold...shaking a bit as she did...and felt the world begin to fall on her and his shoulders...it was a painful thing to feel to her...he was so much more hurt...and seen so much more...and though he felt the pain..tried again...and again..till...he was denied so many times...that...he felt it would be an insane thing to do...if he tried again...

I may not be able to help you....but may I...at least...be there for you? Can you at least just see me as someone that is there to help you...cause i will not leave you...even if you think the same after this moment.

She said with s calm, but sad tone...she wanted to be something...but..to only him for some reason...he was the first to not look at her as a prize...but as a person...and treated her no different than he to another...though not much...it meant something to her...but even if not...she was going to keep her promise...and move by his side..

[Rolego]

Rolego looked to see her face as he felt chin being lifted by her hand, and could not help but feel a bit shamed...and began to brace himself...he was such a lowly creature...but, he was the same before this. He also felt so exposed and weak, like others saw him, and also how his family saw him...he then saw her slowly take off the cloth from her eyes, and was looking into the eyes that he had grown to both fear and love at the same time...but he was unable to get lost in them like he was able to before...he actually felt disgusted...and sick...he was no long that of man anymore...he was..a monster...

Drake...listen...I may not be able to help you...and...i might not be doing enough to help you...but know this...

He then looked at her with pain filled eyes as she said this...she was the only one he truly could trust..but...that was it...he could trust her..and though he anted to think so much more of her...his mind and heart..could not just let that happen...he closed his eyes in shame and as well as fear of what she was going to say next...but then felt his body get pulled and felt her head under his chin and on his chest...for some reason this froze him in his tracks.

You brought me here...and..walked ever further with me...with no words...and in nothing in return. I walked alone once...but now...i never will have that feeling again...and I owe that to you...

He looked down at her with a look of a mixture of sadness and confusion...he did not know he could do this...and he did not try..and also he knew he could not understand...he had quit, and he had not tried to get so close..but as he got close to her he could not help but feel a great ball of sadness...he could not care for her the same back..and to make matters worse he was not of man...he could not take care of her forever...and....he knew it...what could he possibly do to change this?...

I may not be able to help you....but may I...at least...be there for you? Can you at least just see me as someone that is there to help you...cause i will not leave you...even if you think the same after this moment.

These words...for some reason,did not leave the other ear...as he felt her hold grow tighter around his neck and chest...he looked down at her, she was just...just...the words...unfound. But made him worry the most was not that he could not see her as more...but more of...how can he do so at the same level? He never did this before..nor...id he ever thing he would. The thought of she liking him this much and caring this much, made him feel so small...and undeserving...he has done nothing to deserve this. And if he did...he could not give the same amount of love and care back....

But...what...if i cant..care for you..the same back?....I am...no..longer..human...

He finally asked...wanting to know what...how..and could he...

[Guest]

She waited with her head, simply just buried in his fur and mane...she could not understand why such a being was so dis guarded...and left for dead and broken n the middle of a desert...Why he..of all people...he never deserved this...he did not need it...but it all feel on him, and on his shoulders...and look what was made...She did not know what to think or do, but to just hold him there..

But...what...if i cant..care for you..the same back?....I am...no..longer..human...

These words echoed in her mind...no longer...human? She thought of something to say to this...there were so many things she could say, and so many things he could do...but she then looked up at him...and for the first time, with a sad look in her eyes...it was so dark, and yet...it was so fragile due to her features...and it made her think...and think..till finally she smiled and brought her eyes to his.

Drake..i don't care if you can...All i care is that you know hat you are indeed special, not in the dark way you know...but to me. I know you are limited for being who you are...but that does not mean you cant care...Don't worry about caring more than you should...you can do what you can do...i don't care how much you do care for me..just as long as i know it is pure and from the goodness of your heart...I could never ask for anything else...for you have given me my life and my mind back...and my place of well being...

She then finally gave him a great hug.

Just as long as I know you are by me...I could never ask for more...cause now..i have a place...and that is with you.

[Rolego]

Rolego looked at her with a look of sadness at first..but then watched her raise her head, and it shot him right in the hear....this was the first time he had ever seen her with such a face...it was actually far darker than his own. With a small sigh, he looked down again, trying to avert his eyes. Thinking that even the slightest look from him to her would only make the situation even worse. He had nothing to say..and felt awful saying anything to begin with..and also, as time went on as she looked at him in this way made him only feel smaller and smaller...he was putty, and was already being bent and screwed in many ways...just by the look he was getting from her.

Till a moment where he looked up to see her eyes looking dead into his own, making him freeze once more, and look back. She had began to smile once more and also made him melt a little, but also swallow hard...what was she thinking to make her expression change so quickly?

Drake..i don't care if you can...All i care is that you know hat you are indeed special, not in the dark way you know...but to me. I know you are limited for being who you are...but that does not mean you cant care...Don't worry about caring more than you should...you can do what you can do...i don't care how much you do care for me..just as long as i know it is pure and from the goodness of your heart...I could never ask for anything else...for you have given me my life and my mind back...and my place of well being..

He looked at her with a look of awe as she said this...and felt his chest begin to feel a strange bit of pressure, like how one is about to cough but that does not happen...and gave a small shiver and shake...then felt her hug...and then gave a quivering sigh...

Just as long as I know you are by me...I could never ask for more...cause now..i have a place...and that is with you.

Rolego could not find the words..not know what to do but to only stay and get held...and it made him not only cry...but release so much of the pain that was just trapped in for all of these years...and after a while he finally laid his head across her neck and back...though he did cry it was not vocal...but there were alot of tears...

I....I will...try....

[Guest]

Salane held him tightly for what seemed like hours...but it really did not matter to her...cause she knew she had finally gotten through...she could actually pretty much feel it well up in the chest of Rolego as he began to release his fear, and actually began to relax in her grasp...and also after a long moment of time, she began to feel something a little wet fall on her back and behind her...she did not need to see what was happening...and simply held a little more...soon feeling the mane cover some more of her face, and saw that he was trying his best to hug her back...and she gave him a warm smile...seeing something new finally bringing light to himself...maybe he was willing to try...maybe..

Well she was hoping actually, she was really hoping so...cause if so...she could help him more..and as well as hold his hand with a tighter grasp...she did not care that he was no longer human...she just wanted to know that he did not think that her care, and her love and time...was nothing but a waste...cause to her...it was something far more than just a thing that can be simply emulated...

I....I will...try....

This made her give a small jolt for some reason..and then looked to the side of his head to see the waves of just tears just stream from his face...it must be hard doing this again. But gave him a strong hug to him, dropping her blind fold to the ground.

That is all you need to do...and that is all i need to hear....thank you...

[Rolego]

Rolego was shaking in a spot he never though he would never find himself in. All this time of trying to avoid something so genuine literally walked up to him and just took him by surprise, and it made him feel...so many emotions. All of them just trying to fight the other off. He did not want this, but it was something he needed it seemed...and not everything that was needed is something that was wanted...he knew this for a fact and it made his mind just feel like a 2 weight as he tried to console Salane back...he did not know if his words were even valid...he did not know if he could even try...he just wanted to be free of this sort of emotion. But the longer he was held...the more he felt his body just begin molded, and it made him begin to shake less and less...and his mind to feel less and less clouded...and it made his mind and his soul just...break...

That is all you need to do...and that is all i need to hear....thank you...

He gave a small falter as he felt her grip become ever tighter, it was surprising really...why would one try their hardest to care for something who could not do the same back? He was unable and handicapped in so many ways, and it made him wonder what he could do...he felt nothing but pain till now...and though he still felt alone...it was less than what it was...it was such a peaceful feeling...but it felt like it was something that did not belong to him...but it was his to choose to take...But then...he gave a small thought...and looked to her at the best of his ability...and ave a small sigh as he looked to the ground...

Rolego.....

[Guest]

Salane held him there as long as she could stay...she did not want to be pushed away any longer, and she did not want him to think that he was deserving none of what she was willing to give, after all the time they had fought for one another and shared the smallest of joys. She knew that he was more than deserving, and also he was needing it... despite his reluctance to admit that there are being out there that were more than happy to give him the time...but she also knew of his position..

He was trampled on...this she could see, he had both physical and mental scars...so many to remind him of what he did indeed try to do...not to prove himself to himself...but to others...and to see that he was so quickly shot down...and to also see how much he had tried, and to come up with nothing but more blood on him...and more souls just out of his life. No wonder he was so able to keep everything locked in...and to keep so much of it from leaking or showing by showing no expression at all. he had cut all of who he was out of his life...seeing it as a burden more than anything else...and it made her feel like..nothing was truly going to happen even if he did try...

So with this in her mind she eased her head a little from his mane...but heard a small voice from Drake as she did so. Making her freeze in her tracks.

Rolego.....

THis made her stop breathing for a moment...but then she looked back at him in the eyes, and tilted her head...but her eyes just a bit full of shock...is that what she thought it was...?

What...?

She said in a small tone...still trying to gather her mind back to listen...

[Rolego]

Rolego actually looked back to her in her eyes, this time getting entranced again...and finally...gave a small chuckle...the closest thing he had to a laugh in years...and looked back up to her with the same grin. For some reason he had no reason to change...but he did however have a reason to keep living though...and that was just enough to make his mind actually open up more...and more as time went on as he sat next to her. Maybe..she was different...no one stood next to him so long...and no one never looked at him without regretting either..

What...?

He looked back into her eyes and saw her look of shock in them, and gave a small laugh. He could see that she was shocked to see pieces of his old self slowly beginning to return to him...and also...he looked at her as her face just did not move...and looked like she was piecing together the puzzle. He had not said his name in some time...so...he again repeated himself..

My name...it is Rolego...

He said with a small smile to her...and stared back...for some reason he felt his life beginning to have a small change...and also...after time...he could only smile back at her...in her state of shock.

[Guest]

Salane looked at his face, and looked long and hard..and it made her wonder what was going on those pain filled eyes..and what the word meant...but then..saw something she never thought she would see...a smile begin to crawl up on his face...her eyes greatly widened and her spirit just felt like it was blocked by an abrupt feeling of joy...and heard his chuckle, and she could only show a sudden smile back and laugh back to him. but more out of shock of what she was listening and seeing...he was finally...going back? Was he really opening up a bit more to her instead of words? She even made his head stay still by grabbing his face and holding there, it was like seeing a large chest of gold and not being able to really understand till one places their hands on it since it was so..just..there. But she then brought her eyes back to his as to wait for an answer...what did he mean by Rolego?

My name...it is Rolego...

...For a moment she did not take a breath...She finally had something to call him by...she always did...it was just that she finally had something that meant so much more. So with a soft smile she cupped Rolego's face in her hands for the first time...that is what if felt like...

Rolego...it is nice to finally meet you...my name...is Salane...

She said with a small laugh in her speak as she said this..it was funny calling him by his name...she had gotten used to the word Drake for so long it seemed to have grown on him...and also she felt pretty terrible...she had been calling him by a false name the entire time...and it made her spirits shrink a little in some sadness and guilt...she could see that being a reason to be a bit depressed...how would anyone feel if a person was being called other than their name for about 5 months...

Rolego..I am sorry...but it will take me a while to get used to the name...Me calling you Drake for so long made it seem that it was your name so i labeled you as such...

[Rolego]

Rolego finally began to feel some of the weight begin to slowly lift off of his shoulders when he felt his face begin held. It was a strange..but actually a good feeling. A feeling of being given a place. Though before, he was terrified of trying, he might just have a chance here. And it made his warm up a little...he could feel all those small seemingly insignificant pieces begin to to find their way back to those very blank and empty spaces, all of them, slowly squeezing into spots that were at once very difficult to see that anything could fit in them. it was a strange fit, and a strange thing to feel, but in the end, it was worth it...seeing a smile ones face made it worth while it seemed...though, parts of him were not ready...he knew that he had to try...and even if he fell again...he knew that he gave it a shot...this might be his very last time...

Rolego...it is nice to finally meet you...my name...is Salane...

He gave a small chuckle to her as she said this, he knew, but it was funny to hear his name from someone else. At least however it was he she was calling for, and not a name that was just given to be only to be remembered when said...it was strange but again, it was worth the seeming memories of pain that went right through his mind. But he could feel his face not faking is emotions...and also he could tell that everything that he felt was not fake...well he thought it was not...

Rolego..I am sorry...but it will take me a while to get used to the name...Me calling you Drake for so long made it seem that it was your name so i labeled you as such...


Rolego gave a small shrug to her.

It is alright...things happen...and I t was not like...you had much of a choice...huh?

He said with a small smile..

I walked next to you for 5 months not really seeing you any...different. Though i see it now...i just..did not want to see or believe it...I just find it hard to trust people...though you are the only one who i can...it might be a while before i can call you much else...i dont know if it is just a face or you mean it...and...I hate to ask more of you....

He said with a small bit of sadness...he never wanted to say it...but...it came out just that. Proving herself...that was something he never wanted to say...but...it was the only way for him to be sure....he was scared to call her a friend...all others that he called that stabbed him in the back..sometimes very literally...

I am sorry...but...i dont know if i can call you a friend....i dont know what...or why...but...i cant just yet...even with those who fed us the food...I can find that word...or that person i can call friend...and I hate talking and...I hate feeling like if I do...nothing would matter...or I would just be a thing to look over....

He then began to feel how self conscious he was...no wonder he was never able to get any friend ever since that moment in his past that he quit....he always thought there was always something wrong with himself, that i made others just hate him....he could not have a place...he never had one...till maybe now...if he could really see others he could probably have a better chance...but...since he was not...it made him only think that he was only going to be hurt again...and...he did not want to risk feeling that again....he knew it sounded horrid...and weak...but...it was all he had...he was living based off of survival...and not life...and he made it this far surviving...and not living....

...I am sorry....

[Guest]

It is alright...things happen...and I t was not like...you had much of a choice...huh?

He said with a small smile..and She gave a small look to him that said it all...she was actually quite heartbroken, for she saw what was really going on in his mind. He, behind that weak and very sad and smile, she could see the pain that was making her look at him in the way she did...a look of inability. And it made her heart slowly just fall apart...

I walked next to you for 5 months not really seeing you any...different. Though i see it now...i just..did not want to see or believe it...I just find it hard to trust people...though you are the only one who i can...it might be a while before i can call you much else...i dont know if it is just a face or you mean it...and...I hate to ask more of you....

Salane slowly began to understand what he meant, she knew exactly what he meant, and it made her only smile a little. She knew that he meant that she had to prove herself, but also she saw that he hated to ask more of her. But she could understand, she could understand for he was already beaten and bruised...and now look at him. he was a different being, and no one like him. So the feeling of being different not because of looks...but rather of life.

I am sorry...but...i dont know if i can call you a friend....i dont know what...or why...but...i cant just yet...even with those who fed us the food...I can find that word...or that person i can call friend...and I hate talking and...I hate feeling like if I do...nothing would matter...or I would just be a thing to look over......I am sorry.....

Hearing this made her give a short giggle to herself...and soon she held his face in her hands, and looked at him with a soft smile. There was no anger or any sort of burden. She did not care that she had to work for it...and also, she did not mind trying even if it was never going to happen. She cared for him very much, and it made her sad that she was not seen as friend...but it was washed out do the fact that he was willing to try. She could see that his past was making his memory slowly waddle down its lane, and also it made his mind very fretful to try again. So she gave a small laugh to him as she brushed the fur from his face..and the mane from his eyes.

Look Rolego...I know that this is hard, and I know that it might take a long time for those wounds to heal, but i am going to wait, and be patient...and I do not mind working for it...you just had to ask Rolego.

She said with a small smile as she brought his head to her own. Trying to be as calm and as reassuring and motherly that she could. He needed every bit of it...

I care for you very much Rolego...do not be afraid to ask me of something...this is actually the very first time, i have ever gotten a request, and thought it may seem harsh and unfair...it is not. You have every right to be this way...and I do not blame you.

She then pulled her face away from him, and looked down to her blind fold...and wore a sweet grin to her him and to him. Then took it up in her hands and wrapped it around his head. She then sat right in front of him. Wearing a small grin.

Now Rol ask me honestly...do you feel any different?

[Rolego]

Rolego looked down at his paws and gave a small sigh to himself. he felt terrible, he did not know what to think or do now since he basically just said what his life is basically comprised of...or at least what it was. These months that have past have been sweet to him...but at the same time, it made him very sad and depressed. Fearful of what will come of him next time...and his guard up when he had Salane nearby, especially when they were alone. But he had no reason to fear her....and he knew it....but his mind...and only it made his soul and mind so fearful of the past happening again...and it made his heart heavy and his mind cloudy...and it only made him look down further into the ground...

What did he have to prove now? he did not even think of how she will react...but then he felt his face be lifted by her hands and it made him want to look down, but he was looking into her eyes, and it made him relax...and made his mind more open, and as well, his past was not in his mind...and he listened...with a full ear.

Look Rolego...I know that this is hard, and I know that it might take a long time for those wounds to heal, but i am going to wait, and be patient...and I do not mind working for it...you just had to ask Rolego.

Rolego did not know what to say...she made it sound like it was so simple and ill difficult. But...why would it be? Would be asking this of someone who had walked by with you for months without saying a word...be...selfish? Would a person really be this willing to do more when they have done more than enough? He then felt her face come to his as he was being pulled to her, and it made him at first hold his breath, but he relaxed the instant she began to speak again.

I care for you very much Rolego...do not be afraid to ask me of something...this is actually the very first time, i have ever gotten a request, and thought it may seem harsh and unfair...it is not. You have every right to be this way...and I do not blame you.

Rolego felt himself now just suddenly feel like he was floating. There was a small feeling of freedom as she said this...it was not his fault? For some reason these words made him simply, feel more open, and as well as more happy. Though it did not show on his outside. He felt rather warm on the inside...but then he saw blackness. But then felt Salane release him as she backed off, and as he was about to raise his paw..

Now Rol ask me honestly...do you feel any different?

Rolego looked straight and narrow, and he did not see what she was getting at. he did not see or feel any different...he just did not see. So he gave a small thought as he tilted her head at her. But continued to think...but then it hit him...he did not feel any different...and his ears fell a few...and gave a small laugh..

Well...I dont feel...any..different...

He said with a small hint of recognition, he did not feel any different...the feeling of being blind...was not making him feel any different. It had just hit him that he was walking blind for this whole time...it was a funny way to see it....but it made him see what was wrong...or at least see what he was seeing all this time.

[Rolego]

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[Guest]

Hearing this made her smile large and made her mind finally find peace again in the whole mess. it was a good thing to see that he had finally cracked that small boundary, and as well as finding himself in the process, he was still the one who was he before his transformation, and he was not going to change, if was not going to allow it. It was a great and enjoyable thing to see. Actually made her hug him a bit tighter.

Well, now...though she spoke no words, gave a small nod for him of understand. She was very willing to try to make what he wanted for all of these years...and she was going o accomplish this. Though it may be long and probably hard, she was going to try and come out on top. Cause it was not just for her anymore...

[Csilla Angelis]

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