Speaking for the first time

[Rolego]

The land was cold and as empty as it could get. The sands were covered with as much snow the feet and paws of Salane and Rolego was unable to reach them. And also, as he walked he could not notice that he had been walking next to this woman for as long as he did, and not have said a single word to her. But, it was not like he needed too, he was understood even without his words. He knew that he was literally able to not speak and actually be happy around her. But he did not know how she was able to take the silence from him other than the whines and licks he has been giving her. So as he was walking next to her he had moments where his mouth would move and nothing would leave his lips. Thinking that only his silence kept him tethered to her. Which was a heavy burden for him to carry for these long days. So he walked heavily as he walked next to her. Feeling the depressing fact of himself just wearing him down. But he walked with a heavy smile as well. he could not be happier.

He never thought he would hold on to someone this long, and also put up with him. Though he knew he was unable to bee seen, the look she carried as she held to him, made everything better. He felt trusted and as well as....loved. He could not get over the fact that he would be different under he sight. But till that day, he had to keep what he had. His happiness. And he was more than willing to fight for it. Cause he was not going to find it in any other way.

But he also had a small problem outside of his head. He could not find any shelter. there were more out in the desert than last time. Also, with the snows beginning to fall again, he knew that it was a matter of time before Salane was going to be in trouble. So his mind was off in other things other than trying to do more than he was now.

[Guest]

Salane walked with her feel in her now newer shoes she found. Not to far from where she was. Which was very lucky. She had not been able to walked on the earth for a while, she was clinging to Rolego like a clam the whole time she had no shoes. But she actually enjoyed it. She loved being able to be close to the very thing many people actually hated cause they were not what they called normal. She loved being able to be with and actually be able to prove people wrong. But, also she had grown rather attached to the large puff of fur. Despite the fact that he could not speak, she knew him inside and out. She had come to trust him alot. But there was also the threat that also ran in her head as well as made her body shake like a rag doll. It was freezing...and she had not had a chance to be able to reach any near shelter. She also could not use the sands to find any. They were deeply buried and barley able to be reached. She should have learned the first time and carried some with her. Would have worked wonders now.

So as she held onto Drake she could feel herself just grow very weak. The snow and the cold of it made her think and feel very weak. She knew that her body was unable to keeps its pace like it was. So she had to stop...though she knew it was a bad Idea. So she patted of Drakes back, and held tight.

Please..may we stop here....I dont think I can move much further...I cannot feel my toes..

She spoke with a ton cold and shiver. She was totally out of it. And she was going to stop, so as she felt him stop she fell to her knees and began to rub her arms. She wishing she was in a better place than she was now.

Sorry...

She said this with a very quiet and very sad tone. She felt awful for not being strong enough...

[Rolego]

Rolego stopped as he heard her words and also her touch, and it made him nod in total reluctantcy. He really did not want to stop here either. He knew that it was a death trap out here...and he also knew that her frame was not like his. She would die in a matter of minutes if she had no shelter. But he could also understand, he felt nothing. His fur was thin and tough, he could barley feel the air. But she was bear and fur-less, and she had not have a thing except for the clothes on her back, which was for the heat of the summer and spring. So She was in no way shape or form ready for this. Which made him feel rather lucky that he found her.

If she was not next to him, she would have probably died by now. So he quickly acted by moving himself and placing himself next to her. He was defiantly large enough to black the wind. And also he was more than able to take the air. So as he huddled close he also wrapped his tail around. Trying his best to block the air. But then the snow began to fall a little more. He then looked up and gave a small sigh. This is not good.

This was the worst possible thing that could happen.

[Guest]

Salane sat in the snow and pouted...she only felt like dirt...and also she did not know how to react. She knew she should not stop, but she could not carry on the way she was anymore. So she was in a dangerous position. But then, she felt the air just stop, also, though she could not see, she could see the brightness behind her lids just go darker. So she began to fell with her hands and soon reached what she was looking for, at first it it shocked her, but then she began to soon hold onto it burying her face into Drake. Feeling her face just getting covered in his mane, which just did the trick. She began to warm up three times fast, all the way down to her toes. She began to clench them and release them to get the blood going again. She then began to feel the only other thing she did not want to feel. Snow.

The snow began to pour down as she was in her position. She also began to notice that she was not able to be like this for long. So, she moved herself, moving so that she was sitting with her back to Drake and her head in his mane. Then wrapped her arms around his front legs. She again, began to warm up. She also was very happy. She would have been long go if not for Drake. She noticed this just now, and it made her appreciate that thought even more.

He never spoke, but he never complained or left her for any reason, even for the times she was down and almost out. That just made her huddle even more into Drake as she sat there. She could even hear his heart beat. Loud and proud.

Thanks Drake. Would not have been able to make it this far...if I had not come across you...

She then began to yawn a little. feeling her eyes grow heavy in the dark night. But, she felt comfortable. No fear at all of sleeping under the sky life this...this overwhelming feeling of security...it was unmatched. And just to think....she and her friend....friend....that one word stood out. She did not have a true friend in years. And to actually have one again made her flesh, and her mind just feel all cozy. Also, it made her tear up in that mask...but not to much. But she was just happy. She had everything she wanted...

Thank you....and love you....

she said that last part quietly...and rather shyly. Though Drake was a chimera...there was a human in there...and it made her sit rather off...but...at least it was out.

[Rolego]

Rolego sat there and watched and could only feel kind of uncomfy. Though he had not been able to rest with her before, but it was odd now. Now that he was more in a position of loss....or something like that. But he just felt just, happy to a point that it made him feel out of place. He watched every move she made and as well as shifting his position every once in a while. Though he knew this a life or death situation for her, it made him want to wish that this closeness was not needed. But after a few minutes, he relaxed and looked down at her. Not helping but to smile a bit.

Thanks Drake. Would not have been able to make it this far...if I had not come across you...

Rolego gave a small nuzzle to her head with his nose. This was true...she would have been very..VERY dead without him there. She had many run ins with many things with him there. If he he had not, he would not have known what she would have done. So he gave a small nod to himself at the thought, and gave a small sneeze. Feeling the weather begin to take affect on him. Though he was warm, the cold air going into him through his nose just made him feel rather sick. But he did look down to Salane, and watched her nuzzle away.

Thank you....and love you....

Rolego simply shuttered at that. But also made him grin uncontrollably. But at the same time, he felt his lips begin to open a little. He wanted to say it back...but also he did not know what to say...he had not spoken to anyone....and he was very scared to speak to her. He did not know what to say, though he did not know, or how he should sound like....all of these thoughts just rammed into his head....but he also knew he had not said a word to her for months. Maybe....just maybe it was time for him to do so. So he brought his head down a little, and looked to see her black mask a shade darker than before...and soon saw some cool tears fall across her cheek...and gave a small sigh...but smiled....then..

I love you too.....rest well...Salane..

[Guest]

Salane sat with Rolego and was just about fall asleep, but she was simply just teetering on the edge of it.Something just held her back from falling asleep, thought she knew she really did need it. She tried everything, she even laid a little off so that her head was more on Drake's chest, so that she could rest....she did not. Something made her wonder why she could not too, nothing was holding her back...well nothing should be...but as she began to search, she began to think of what she said before she tried to rest. That last phrase that should have been left unsaid but was needed at the same time. She was actually wondering if Rolego actually felt the same. But as she tossed and turned a little she felt him lower his head, and she rapped her arms around his head the moment she felt his head....feeling a little better...then she heard a voice...which made her almost falter...

I love you too.....rest well...Salane..

It was calm...and as sooth as silk...and it made her entire world just go black...blacker than it was just now...behind the veil that kept her from seeing...she then covered her mouth....and began to burst in to tears...actually taking the blind fold off of her eyes...just so that they blind fold wont be messed with....but as she did, she turned her head to Rolego...and finally after a full year...opened her eyes. and wore a sweet and kind smile...and wrapped her arms around Rolego's head and cried to no end...but she made no sound...the tears were all that was there. She then found that comfortability she had lost before she had her trouble resting. Then finally closed her eyes....falling into a deep slumber, just after a kiss to Drake's face. Falling into a deep slumber...

[Rolego]

Rolego could not help but feel nothing but total sadness at first...he knew he should not have said a thing. He knew his tone was nothing but trouble. He simply felt terrible, he thought he had just ruined something he could of held for a lifetime. The tears she cried made him look away a little. But then, looked back to see the blind fold in her hands...and on her lap. Which made him look wide eyed ate her ate he closed eyes...and watched as she looked over to him...and slowly opened them...his ears..dropped. As well as his jaw. There were no words to describe them. She was beautiful before...but the face he was looking at now...did not compare...he actually twitched as he felt her wrap her hands around his face...made him melt when he felt her kiss him.

He could only watch in stunned amazement...not just because of how she looked, but how he did not break the deal he had with her...that tether that he thought would have been broken...was stronger than he had thought...stronger now. he gave a few licks back to her as she then began to fall asleep...he did the same as well....but placing her on his side as he laid on his chest and wrapped his tail around so that the snow and wind was blocked. Smiling...like a fool..

He then closed his eyes and felt his body just heat up...he was as happy as he could ever be. Nothing would ever compare. Not even his home....well...the ones he had met outside of it. But, he swayed the thought away....letting himself fall asleep as well...thinking alot better and also feeling alot healthier...like how a burden is lifted off the shoulders of on who had carried it for years with no relief. Nothing was going to top what he felt now...

[Guest]

The next day came around and Salane felt nothing but the brisk wind, but she also for the first time in a while looked at what she was traveling with the entire time. And, it did not even unnerve her. It actually made her want to hold on forever. She held onto him and was carried, and she was looked after for months, and he did not once move away for a moment. He stayed, and now seeing that he actually spoke to her, it made her feel that she had finally get through to him. Also, she was very happy she at least knew what she was saying the entire time, for the while she was with him, she did kind of treat him like a pet rather than a person that he truly was. So she felt the gravity of it hit her all of a sudden. So she looked for her patch she wore and placed it back in her hands, looking down at them, thinking if they were needed anymore, now seeing what she wanted to see for a long time.

She did not know, her past was accumulated of so many things and opening them to see the world again seemed rather dangerous and stupid. It took alot just to get to where she was, but she had to close her sight off to the world and made every other sense about her much stronger. But her sight and her minds eye was not the same from when she first started. And she knew it. She knew she was unable to do the same as she did before where her eyes could see what she wanted to see. Now opening them and looking to what she finally had. She felt rather idiotic, guilty, and personally humiliated. She held the bubble around her for some time and seeing it so easily popped made her feel better. Even if it was from one who might have a very different view on how the world works, and seen it and felt it in more than one ways.

She sat up and began to dust the new patches of snow and sleet that have iced upon Drakes...or...who ever it was coat. She remembered that she named him under the name of Drake. She did not have a clue who he really was, and also with this, she was not even sure his name would even be heard. She could understand though, she had seen some very evil and dark things happen to chimera and as well as those who had followed them as a friend or ally. She knew the punishment where she was from. And seeing how long he had to be with her to speak, he probably was in a state of mind that has probably destroyed who he was and probably was not going to be able to see or even listen the same to anyone again.

She continued to do this and felt him begin to wake up, and she gave a small smile as she pet and combed through his mane and fur. Trying to suppress the feeling she had knowing that they are going to be let all out later if he was wanting to let her know him more like before. So she just did what she did. Wondering what was really going on in his mind now, seeing that he now had the courage to raise up a little and speak to her.

Hey....how did you rest...?

[Rolego]

Rolego was sleeping with a very light burden, if not any at all. His past worries and his future thoughts a=of how pain was, was quickly gone from his mind through the night. He could only really think of what he saw before he went to rest. Only thinking of that face. it was almost like a drug, he was feeling very lucky and also so far out of place and out of his league. He knew that not many would see here face....those eyes. He known of her past and also the reason for the mask that covered her face. So just feeling nothing but happiness and feeling special just went rampant in his head. He also had the feeling of butterflies in his stomach. He could not rest in one place for long through the night. he had to move every once in while cause his body melted the ice and snow that was on the ground below him, and also that was on him a little. He for a time thought there was no snow. His fur and his mane made him think the snow past over and the summer was there.

But then he began to feel something mess with his fur. And like a big lazy dog, he gave a small grumble and fell back into his sleep....only to feel the same feel again but through his mane. Which did wake him fully. He opened his muzzle and let out a vocal yawn that made a small echo, a mix of a whine of a dog and small roar of a lion.

Hey....how did you rest...? Turned to Salane with a smile...the first in ages to a face that could now see him after months of traveling. but he was not scared to do so this time, before it would be a very very unlikely thing, but seeing that someone was actually willing to stay with him....it was almost an honor to do so.

I should be asking you that. You are not like I. He then nuzzled the base of her neck, not really feeling any shame in doing so. Why would he, they both had a small ultimatum in seeing that they had the ability to show and do things they are not fond of doing. But in doing this he could not feel a little embarrassed still, and still feel like he should not be doing this. He was different...and to see someone so kind and nice without any want of it in return till now....made him feel very unworthy of having such things. Or such people. It was still very odd for him...and to speak without fear of any kind. Made him feel just...odd. Out of place...no need...something he wanted but at the same time he was very afraid to do. Something that is invalid. His words were these things. Nothing he could say would matter...But...why does it mean something now after being with her for so long?

He had not spoken to anyone since he had became this way....and he was very prepared for living the life he was living. But why does this feeling of total sadness and joy come from? They come at the same time, and he cannot really chose how to feel. Sadness, to the fact that he was nothing worth of much. Joy, to actually see someone who will listen...and will take his pride and bear it with him as well as his sadness he tries to hide. He soon gave a small sigh and let his eyes fall to the earth...and after a few odd moments of silence he only gave a sad look to Salane. He did not deserve this...why did it hurt to know that this was true after all of this time he had been wit her? He had listened to her, walked with her....and she knew more than enough about him just cause of his actions. He then looked to see sadness in the eyes he was once happy to see...which was now hurting him more than anything.

I am sorry....I guess I am just not used to speaking to anyone.... He then laid his head down on the ground and looked up in the sky, now beginning to feel the cold in his flesh and skin. I never had a true friend, I though I have but....they always end up leaving me. And in me trusting you....i guess i just fear of the hurt again...People fear me cause i am different...and to actually meet someone that is capable to put up with me....is..just...I dont know...sorry...

he did not know what to say....his shell was all he knew...and all of who he was, was military. Everything he knew as nothing but. Everything fell back on it...and also it made him think that he was nothing more than just a husk with a soul that only shrinks over time. He never knew he could find happiness...it felt good for the time being...but fearing how the future was going to be again....it was not fair. He was going to face his fear again, and again, he will have to cover it up in any means necessary, his trust in anyone....kindness....was just a way to show he was weak in a way. He never wanted to do this or want to be part of it. But now that he was, he did not want to break that tie...he did not want to burn the bridge. Cause it really made who he was....in some way shape in form. He was happy in the past as a child...and he had a few friends...but those friends proved nothing to be nothing but a liability to his life, and also harmed him in ways he could no longer imagine or want to unless his dream want to come back and haunt him.

He did not want this...but he really desperately wanted it...and he knew that he was unable to have something like it...but now seeing that he can made him hate himself that he was the way he was. His thoughts ran through his head like hornets and storms....and it drove him to the point of tears...

His true emotion and his true want of love, and kindness, was simply being blocked by the fear he had of all who came his way. He did not know how to react...and he does not know how to bear something like this. All he knew was how to fight and how to actually leave others...and be rejected. That was all he knew for the past time of him being this way....a creature someone made and tossed out on the road due to any reason. Did not come out right, did not speak, to dangerous, so many things....and in time it made who he was. A scared kitten in a world filled with pit bulls and Rottweilers. And....he did not know how to dig his way out of it...He was just stuck in this rut he could not tear himself out of....and now he had a chance..it was hard to take that hand...he did not know what laid out of that hole...

But he did know...that if he did not...it was just a matter of time when people will begin to kick the dirt in...and bury him alive...

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